i think i'm crazy.
real crazy.

Too stress up and worry about school work, even when sleeping, i'm thinking about school work.
how crazy i can be ?

there was this day when i'm still with andrew not long ago,
i broke out and cry
just suddenly cry.
crying like nobody business.
cos tat period of time is UT period, just got so stress and worry
afraid that i won't do well
afraid that i can't study finish
afraid that i will screw myself and do some careless mistakes

i know this will be never ending.
UTs are almost every week.
sometime andrew told me that i study too much.
did i? cos if i expose myself to more things then i might know how to answer some UT questions.

if you read my previous post,
i got A for UT. i'm seriously very happy.
freaking happy.
all the effort did not go into waste.
i will not just stop here.
this don satisfy me.
i will aim more. (greedy)

i feel like crying now.
Yes. i really want to cry now.
from the stress, from relationships stuffs.
all i wan is good grade and a good boyfriend that can make me laugh and smile.

Going to meet andrew later
he got some surprise things for me.
wonder wad is it.
hope this time round he can really touch my heart.
if he really can, i will patch back with him
if he can't, i think good friends will be better.

I got this thinking that this world is always fair.
one will never get everything he/she wants,
one will never have all things that goes smoothly for them

that's y,
i don't mind crying
i don't mind if i can't get a good bf
i don't mind being lonely.
Just let me get good grades for UT.
i think i'm really crazy.
putting studys infront of everything else .
but studies is really my 1st thing i care.
Yea.

if i have to love books i will
if i have to love biology i will
if i have to not have bf, i will not have
if i have to be lonely, i don't mind
if i have to be nerd, so be it.
Just give me good grades.
That's all i want.
That's all i really want.

let me be CRAZY.

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